The Pressure To Transform

Joya 0:01

Beautiful lights and souls. If you are feeling like you are in a season of transformation, which truly is our nature, that's where we are always supposed to be constantly becoming with no set fixed identity, like we've arrived and we're there and there's nowhere else to go. That's not how it works. But what I'm talking about is a deeper nervous system capacity that can allow and hold for this transformation that you're experiencing to happen. And today on the show, I want to talk about this this pressure to transform and paradoxically how to absolutely love yourself as you are right now in the transformation without the need to control, force, or create the transformation, but rather to let the divine do with you as it wills. Because this is your true nature. As you go searching for your true nature, you discover that your true nature is the divine, that it is love, that it is pure source. And as such, it has the capacity to love everything about you. Everything. There's nothing in your life that is not loved. And not seen as if it's not in the highest frequencies, then it is seen as mulch or fertilizer for your garden. It's seen as fuel that you feed to the furnace within you that ignites into the light as you choose to be ignited by the light. And it can sound so abstract, but it's not. And so I'm going to give you some really tangible examples of what I'm talking about and then dive into why do some people go through a transformation or they go through a change, but then within a year or two years, or sometimes less, they slip back and go right back to where they were before they made that transformation. And this is the difference between a complete transfiguration within you versus resiliency. Because resiliency is a bounce back state. It'll bounce you right back. But transfiguration is a completely new way of being. Bringing the spiritual inside the temple of you. And my favorite way to do that is through frequency or movement or both. And so I've been doing this really powerful practice lately. And I simply set a drone on, which is just a single tone playing for 11 minutes, and I hum with it for 11 minutes. And while I'm doing this practice, it's very intentional. I am consciously breathing into an opening and feeling into my high heart space, which I've done a whole episode about the high heart and how to open it. Breathing into this high heart space, the love of source, as I inhale, I feel and I visualize this beautiful golden light. It's like a golden magenta light flowing into my heart space as I inhale. And as I exhale with every exhale, with every hum, I am exhaling out this essence through me, through me. So I'm sending it, I'm breathing it in, and I'm sending it back out while I inhale and hum for 11 minutes. And I'm finding that this is an unbelievable practice for inner alchemy. I take the raw material of my current state, whether that's my grief, my expansion, who I'm becoming, my career, this book I'm writing, all of it. And I melt it down through the crucible of sustained tone and focus and attention and love. Sound medicine, your voice, especially, vocal medicine, works at the level of frequency inside of you because your body is 70 to 80 percent water. And water is a liquid crystal inside of us that holds our memory, our emotion, and our frequency. And when you hum, you're not just making the sound outside of yourself, you're keeping it in and you're creating an internal pressure wave that reorganizes the molecular structure of your own biology. And if you know what cymatics are, which is sound made visible, it's the shapes of church windows, those beautiful designs on church windows are cymatics. When you are doing this, you're creating cymatic patterns inside of you, in the water system of you. And you're telling yourself that you're held, you're safe. And especially as you're breathing in and holding those intentions of love and returning love, receiving love and giving love, receiving love and giving love. And without this felt sense of safety as our base root, it's in Maslow's pyramid. Safety is at the bottom. And without this safety inside of ourself, our nervous system does not transfigure, it survives. And I journaled about this this morning through a download that came in. That was exactly this. Okay. I was talking about how difficult it is on my nervous system as I write this book. And I'm aware, I'm so aware now of the inner movements of my body that since I started this book, I can feel this tightness in my spine, up in the heart chakra in the back, toward up toward my left shoulder and up toward my neck. And it's like it's starting to pinch. And so I realized I might say, I'm fine to write this book. This is a great thing to write this book, which it is. I'm ready to write this book, which I am. My nervous system remembers what I went through to write this book. And it seizes because there's a lot of pain still there, especially as we roll up this week is Mother's Day and Weston's 20th birthday is on Mother's Day this year. And so I wrote this in my book: the more you practice, the more you gain access to the universal intelligence through the gate of your true self. I'm talking about my humming practice that I just shared with you. Tuning here leads you to align with your true self or your truth that lights you up because you are the creative manifester, that which creates in the field of creation. And here is a secret: you are already a match to your desires. But your desire may be an agreement to feel stuck, to feel small, to feel frustrated, to feel disappointed. It's the dominant tone your tribe carried and became the tone you learned to attune to and to survive in. It's the frequency your nervous system plays in the background of what you say you want. Now see the truth that lights you up as the lived reality. Feel as if it's so. Match your vibration to this new desire. As you hum, your body becomes the chord, and it's spelled it C-H-O-R-D, like a song chord, that connects to those frequencies or qualities of the divine. It amplifies the physical around you and the presence within you because you are the connection between heaven and earth. You are both receiver and transmitter. How powerful is that for a download? And it really answered the question that I was asking like, why is my nervous system bracing? And so I am going to a deeper level now of felt safety now that as I write this book, as I go forward and step into this bigger capacity of talking about these things openly, of how I've been living them and sharing them with others so that they can start to live them too. Because I wasn't given this tech, this ascension technology, this spiritual awakening technology just for me. And so humming is so simple because everybody can hum. Even people who are afraid to sing can hum. And when you hum, you are not making the sound outside of yourself. Yes, people around you can hear it, but your intention is not to sound out, it is to sound in. Humming is one of the most ancient forms of voice medicine there is. And I love it because it bypasses the mind immediately. There are no words to interpret, there's no concepts to grasp, no ideas. It's just pure vibrational intelligence. And I've been humming on the F note, which is the heart chakra, and that's the practice we're going to do at the end of this. As you keep doing it, your cranial cavity becomes a resonant chamber. You can feel if when you're doing this practice, is if you if you let your teeth lightly touch together, they should vibrate because the bones in your skull are vibrating in sympathetic vibration, which means the ventricles of your brain are vibrating and the cerebrospinal fluid is vibrating and your pineal gland is vibrating. Your whole brain is vibrating. So you are becoming the resonant chamber through which the goddess in you is breathing and sounding. And when you breathe in the love and you exhale the essence at the same time, you are actually practicing a mystery school practice because we're not receiving something or getting something from source, but we're really demonstrating that through our breath and our hum, we are not separate from what we are calling in. The inhale brings the frequency into form and the exhale on the hum, you're agreeing with it at a frequency level. And you can imagine that the light flows into you and becomes form. As it presses down, it becomes form. And as it expresses out of you, it becomes vibration. But it's all vibration. So this is really allowing as we're breathing in this love and we're humming out this love and we're humming in this love, and we are this love. We become this love, and our cells begin to become reorganized by the frequency of love until love is no longer something that we are feeling, but something you are. It's so beautiful when you feel this switch happen over. What happens inside of you is a transfiguration between your mind, your heart, and your nervous system. When we are singing words of power, I like to sing Aramaic words like inana nura, which means I am light, or inana sharara, I am truth. And so as we are singing these words, the mind cannot sing the song and hold the meaning and run the scarcity program at the same time. And the heart generates the strongest electromagnetic field. It is 60 times stronger and greater than just the brain. And so when we tone and we sing and we use our even just humming, we are opening our heart emotionally and expanding our field capacity. We're literally creating a more greater, stable, coherent field of electromagnetic real estate for our soul to inhabit. And the part that most people miss, most manifestation teachers are not talking about, is the fact that you can have the transcendent vision, you can lock it in your nervous system to be disciplined, to focus on it, to do nothing but create it. And then you create, can create it and bring it into manifestation. And then you'll lose it. Because if your system, your nervous system is not calibrated to hold that frequency, but it is calibrated to collapse or through betrayal or through scarcity, you will unconsciously sabotage the thing you've manifested. So doing these practices, voice medicine and especially sustained humming like this, builds our own nervous system capacity for aliveness and for sitting with the discomfort that comes with expansion. Because each time you stay in an 11-minute container and your body wants to stop, or you want to check the time, or you want to see how much longer you have to go, or you want to get busy doing the laundry or whatever it is that starts to try to interfere with your practice, you realize that as your ego collapsing. And you just sit with it and say, I can handle more light, I can handle more love, I can handle being this big, I can handle an 11-minute practice. And as you drop in, something really powerful shifts inside of you because the discomfort of transformation, of change is going to happen in two ways. Either way, you're going to be uncomfortable. And it's either going to manifest as the urge to repeat and go back to the old behaviors that hold you back, that kept you where you were, that the homeostasis of the life that you were living, the status of resiliency that takes you right back, and these habits that create a false sense of peace. And in fact, Weston just told me yesterday that addiction is a dopamine loop running based on false pleasure. And when we've created these inside of ourselves, and let's face it, this that's what this world is designed to do, is to create these loops and they keep us stuck, though. And then you go through the shame, the blame, the regret, the remorse, the resentment, that whole spiral, the shame spiral you go into, which is not comfortable. Or you face that same discomfort by not doing it, by staying in the practice, by using your voice for 11 minutes. And you recalibrate your cells, you expand your heart field and your nervous system, you stretch it and exercise it like a muscle. And so you don't need to learn to ask for more because we're always manifesting. And the world meets us, this world of manifestation that we create in meets us at the level of our frequency and our vibration. And so, yes, we can force a manifestation, but if you are not the woman who can hold that, you will lose it and not be able to keep it. And all you have to do is look in our world and see how true this is. Most lottery winners go back to being broke. People who achieve success in their company sabotage it and lose it. There's all kinds of crazy things that we do and we justify it in the moment, but it's a really tricky, sticky loop of the nervous system. And so your voice is a medicine that not only calls things into you, but it transfigures the vessel that receives them into the woman that can hold them. And if you are walking through the fires of transformation right now, whether it's through grief, loss, awakening, you know, people glorify and justify or talk about awakening like it's a constant state of bliss, and it's not. And I remember when I was in that phase, I'm just always in bliss. It's all bliss, bliss, bliss. My spiritual wise friend, mentor, and teacher said to me, This is manic bliss. It's a phase of awakening. And we don't want to be in manic bliss because that's the same kind of thing that we're there for a while, but that's not sustainable because that's not real life. Beauty is absolutely real life. Living in a constant miracle is absolutely real life. And so is knowing that our body is a spiritual technology. So if we do this practice today, if you do this practice with me, through water and vibration, we are reorganizing ourselves at a molecular level. Through humming and listening to a steady drone, we're creating vagus note, nerve tone, and cranial resonance. And 11 minutes is just enough time to move through those valleys of resistance and into this explosion of love, into this activation of your pineal gland. And so I'm hoping that you experience that with me today. Manifestation is asking the universe to change while you stay the same. But voice medicine is using your own sound to become unrecognizable to your old frequency again and again and again. Your voice is a frequency through which your soul enters matter. And when you change your tone, you change your timeline. When you change your tone sustained over time, you change your tone of your biology, and then your biology becomes a temple instead of a prison. And this is where the goddess lives inside of you and doesn't just visit anymore. She moves in. And living in this space is the most powerful, sovereign, sacred place from which you could possibly come. Let's begin this practice by standing with your feet shoulder width apart, rooted firmly on the ground. And feel yourself standing like a pillar, unshakable. Divine connection between the earth and the heavens. Take a deep breath and feel the energy of the field alive around you. Exhale. Feel into the space of your high heart and your body. And visualize it opening like a blooming flower. And as you inhale, see and feel a golden, beautiful light coming and filling your whole body up through the center. Inhale. And exhale with a hum. Feel this energy, not only hearing in your body. Through this voice in your body, I feel really energy and feel. Let's do this together. Inhaling now, let's do this for three minutes with the drone.