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down, you have a sense that you are far greater than what you are. That sense is your own light, your own life force energy urging you to grow, to expand, and to become more alive with the truth that lights you up. I'm Joya. I'm a sound medicine woman, and I believe that your life is the way. Not a life you're building toward, not a someday version of yourself that you hope to get to, but this life right here, right now, in the messy middle, exactly as it is. In every episode, I will give you the real tools to narrow the gap between what you know and what you're being. Through ancient wisdom, drum medicine, conscious voice, and the living transmission of a path I didn't choose. It chose me. This is Turn Up Your Light. Let's begin. I had a really deep thought today that now has me thinking about the thought. And it was when you find yourself caught up in that moment where your thinking has become thick and you start to identify with it. Pause and ask yourself who is doing the thinking? Who is doing the thinking? That one question has me diving really deeply into a lot of beliefs and things that I've been still upholding as truths in my life. And now I think I'm under this pressure to re to really examine truth. And so I bet you are too, because I know that what I'm experiencing, many of us who have been doing this work for a long time are experiencing the exact same things. There is an energetic force at work on the planet that is causing the same pressure. And it's an energetic pressure that's like the pressure put on a coal so that the diamond can transmute. It's a form of alchemy, an inner alchemy that we're undergoing right now. And as we listen to these pressures of transformation, we begin to light up inside of ourselves. It has me asking, Who am I? Who am I really? Who's identifying with any of the thoughts or any of the agreements that this body has made in this lifetime? When really, when we sit and look at life, honestly, it's a string of days within each day of which you make memories. You have experiences through your actions that you choose to do in the world. And through these daily actions, we create the experience of our life. And this is why learning to stay present in those days is so important. And that's why waking up is so important, so that you are a present conscious creator. And the reason for that is that when we drop this beautiful biological suit that we're wearing on this planet to experience it in this 3D realm, is that this life is a dress rehearsal for the next one. And that's not to say that we don't live our life. We do live our life. We live our life with more authenticity than we've ever lived it before. To live in your light is to live your real life. It is beyond expansive and it's difficult to describe. So I want to talk about this self-identity and the origin of the ego because when we talk about or we use language, language forms our psyche. We we put labels on things. It's how we interpret data from the world outside of us and within us, is through language. Words are so important. Words are so important. And when the word ego began to take on a meaning of something that we needed to change about ourselves, something that we needed to battle about ourselves, it set up this inner dichotomy between yourself within you. There's so many stories about it. The good wolf and the bad wolf, the one you feed. There's the devil and the angel on your shoulder. Really, the original words, when you look at the origin of the word ego, and I think about it from Yeshua's standpoint when he said, I am. And even Moses, what was his? I am that I am. I am that I am. So in Aramaic, there is no being verb. So you can't actually say I am the way that we say it in English. When Yeshua was saying it, he wasn't making an identity claim as an I am a thing. He was uttering something closer to I I. And Neil Douglas Klotz made the word be Inanna, which is an ancient Middle Eastern sacred phrase pointing to the only real I. Inana. Here's what Yeshua was saying in that. He was reclaiming the I from the origin from the religious authorities. When he said before Abraham was I, I, Inanna, he was pointing to this timeless awareness that lives within all of us. The one that knows it's not the body, that's not any of the stories, any of the experiences. It's not the role, it's not, it's not any of this. It's the participator in it, it's the witness of it, but it's not it. So it's the same non-dual thread that carries through every wisdom tradition, that the small self, which is the nafsha in Aramaic, or the self that's alive, the soul that's alive and embodied in you, your aliveness, is the only I. They aren't two, it's one, it's I. I. And remember, we're talking about a culture of people that were uh they were spirit or spiritually inclined, religious. They followed uh intellectual religions, the Greeks, the Aramaics, and the Hebrews. And so they had this really deep perception of life. It was purely through the spiritual lens in which they viewed life and their myths and their legends. And so when you're in your sense of I deeply, you start to feel a really deep humility at who's really doing the living and how you've been treating that within you. At least that's been my experience of it, and the women I've been talking to. You bow to it, you feel how grand it is, you feel how loving, how expansive it is. And it's not separate from you, it's you, it's the level of consciousness through which you're capable of expressing as so much love and wisdom and compassion and joy and grief. It's space to hold all of it. There's no separation between grief and joy because what is birthed from the deep shit that grief is, is profound, beautiful wonder. It changes how you see the world, it expands you, and that because it's a different I that is coming on board in the consciousness. So when Freud came along and he turned it into something defensive and fragmented and pathological, and spiritually made the ego have to die, made that the goal, ego death is the goal of spirituality, that we lost the original teachings. We lost the original idea. And this is what Mary Magdalene carried on and taught. The eye is not the problem. The confused eye is the problem. The eye that thinks it's only the body, just the story, just the wound, just the role, just the age, just this, just all of it. Yeshua's Inanna is the one that knows itself as the living presence, the same eye that Moses heard in the burning bush. A Asher A. We've been taught to kill the ego, but the same spiritual traditions that tell us to kill the self also translate Yeshua's words as Inanna, the small self bowing to the greater self. It's not to be annihilated by it, it's the same self. It's like, it's like two points. I'm seeing it as an estuary, that point where a river meets the ocean and they make, they meet and they intermingle and they become one. They become the same. So Yeshua didn't destroy the I. He said, I and the Father are one, and he meant it. He was pointing to the large enough to hold God. So when I'm asking who is doing the thinking, that is really living in on a practice. It's a presence practice. When you ask that of yourself, you aren't solving the thought. You're not listening to the thought, you're not obeying the thought. But like it's a slipping behind it into the awareness that's just witnessing it. And that witness is the Inanna, the real I, the greater I, the one that gets invited when we stop rejecting our own inner experiences and we start containing them, being present with them, accepting, accepting them and welcoming them. All of you is welcome here. Yeshua was not teaching a religion. He was trying to teach people how to deeply awaken in the body and recognize and realize that the body is a spiritual technology. The same thing that all great wisdom teachers have taught. He was offering us a relocation of our identity from the story to the awareness that holds the story. It's self-inquiry. Inana. Not I am this or I am that, just I. The bare fact of awareness. And when that I gets big enough to hold your grief, your rage, your burning, your becoming, your joy, your wonder, your reverence, your awe. It turns out that it was never just yours. It's that that belongs to everyone because that same I, that same consciousness, that same level of love infuses everyone. And that is the living God speaking as you. There's a beautiful quote that I love by Robert Browning that says, and I'm paraphrasing, release your inner splendor. Isn't that just so beautiful? I invite you to do now this beautiful practice that dropped into me that I will share the audio from that I did with my friends in Santa Fe. I taught it to them. And I hope that it serves you to open yourself up. All of you, reclaim every bit of you. Love every bit of you, accept every bit of you. Because no, those are just parts you've played and parts you've been. Simply misusing this vast consciousness that you have access to. And in that feeling, there's so much freedom that to know that you are so much more than you think you are. May this practice serve to turn up your light. And with that, any blessings, I'll see you next week. I receive all the love that love has for me. I receive all the love that love has for me. Hands open in a triangle, pushing outward. I live all the love that love has for me. I live all the love that love has for me. I give all the love that love has for me. I give all the love that love has for me. Mm, and I just heard I am all the love.