Your Inner Light And Intent

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Deep down, you have a sense that you are far greater than what you are. That sense is your own light, your own life force energy urging you to grow, to expand, and to become more alive with the truth that lights you up. I'm Joya. I'm a sound medicine woman, and I believe that your life is the world. Not a life you're building toward, not a someday version of yourself that you hope to get to, but this life, right here, right now, in the messy metal, exactly as it is. In every episode, I will give you the real tool to narrow the gap between what you know and what you're feeling through ancient wisdom, drug medicine, conscious voice, and the living transmission of a past I didn't do. It told me. This is Turn Up Your Light. Let's begin. Hello, beloved lights and souls. I have returned from my amazing adventures in Santa Fe, and I want to share with you how precious and valuable spiritual girlfriends are. And having three people willing to go on this journey where we didn't make any plans. And we all stepped into this feminine frequency of just trusting whatever arises, whoever wants to do something. We all just said, yeah, let's do that. And we wound up having the most incredible, soul-filling, heart-filling weekend where we made no plans and magic unfolded. And the first was that my friend Amanda kept talking about Sasquatch, and she's been getting Sasquatch energy lately. And so we were talking a lot about it. And I said, Well, if we're ever going to see a Sasquatch, this is kind of the environment where we'd see it because we were staying at a cabin that butted up right to the end of the Santa Fe Mountains. And if you keep walking, you'll wind up in Colorado. So there was literally nothing behind this cabin but woods and wilderness. So quiet. But when we get there, we come inside and I look outside this beautiful full window showing off the beautiful view of the trees and the creek. And I look outside, and there standing by the creek is a little statue of a Sasquatch. And we started laughing so hard. I mean, what are the odds that the owner would put a Sasquatch there? We were just cracking up that that was how our trip started. And we arrived at the cabin precisely at 4:44 p.m. Also not planned. And from there, the magic just unfolded and it wound up being so much about a deeper embodiment of who we know ourselves to be, a deeper capacity in the body to hold the light that wants to shine through us. And that is really the balance, the alchemy of the divine feminine and the divine masculine energy coming together now, wanting to be unified in this body, in this physical essence. The aspect of the divine masculine is the realm of spirit. It's the invisible realm that we can't see. The realm of ideas, the realm of truth, the realm of light. And the realm of the feminine is the realm that has been exiled, and that is the earth herself, our mother, the creator of this body. That we are 99% compatible with soil. And there's a reason for that, and that is that our bodies are that through which the invisible force of light gets to live and play and create and learn and have physical experiences. And this is the realm of the divine feminine, the realm of nature, the realm of creation itself, the realm of receptivity. And I'm really feeling into this now. This deeper embodiment and this weekend really brought it home to move in the natural flow of a day and a rhythm of the day and how the day wanted to unfold. And I know it's not often that we get to go and do that and have those kinds of experiences. But we can all schedule an hour of our life at some point during the week to just follow the flow and see where we're led and see where it takes us. To have a whole weekend like that with two other women who also were in the flow was quite something. And it made me realize that that's how I want to do my retreats going forward. And that that's something that I've always wanted to do is retreats because I love the magic that unfolds in community. But going slow and having this loose structure that we woke up in the morning, we had our coffee or our tea, we fed the birds, and then we drew some cards for the day. And then we got into just whatever arose, and we all did some healing work together, and then we would sing and drum and meditate and pray and be led through each other's alchemies. And then we would take off and see what the day brought us. And we wound up getting an extremely beautiful blessing at such a sacred space, and I bought myself the most incredible Mary Magdalene anointing oil. We all bought it. Having that experience there in a beautiful environment of the divine feminine who works with flower essences and plant medicines, plant essences to create perfumes and salves. Just spectacular. And to have delicious dinners and look at the stars in those dark skies where we were. And just the companionship of women who get you, who see you in your light. It's so precious. And that's something that we all need. This feeling of belonging, of feeling whole, of feeling okay to just be who we are. In the group and in the group dynamic. I came home and over this last day, I've not been home long. Now comes the integration part, right? All the realizations start to land in. But I feel like I've reached this energetic dead end of the path I was on. Where some real choices get to be made about what I want to do going forward. And I have this beautiful space that I moved into that I haven't been at very often. In this last year of grieving. And this realization that grief isn't something that ever goes away. It's not like I'm gonna just wake up one day and not feel like something's missing in my life. Because something will always be missing in my life now, forever. Until I reach the end of this physical incarnation and I get to return back home. And when I sit down with what do I really want? What is what is my deepest desire? What do I really want to manifest in this life, in this 3D realm? What do I want to create? What do I want to hold? What do I tangibly want to touch? What do I want to make manifest in my reality? The thing that drives me, the thing that I want the most, the thing that I hunger and thirst for is to always feel connected to the light, to love, too, to source, to my son, to that which is beyond what I feel and see and experience in my physical incarnation. And so what I've realized is that the awakening process that I've gone through through grief brought me deep into my physical incarnation. Really, probably for the first time, to land deeply at home in my body. And we talked a lot about this at the retreat because we all realized that it was a process of grief, a process of some sort of ending, that opened up this capacity for the high heart to open. The high heart, which is what happens when you come into coherence inside of yourself through the three H's head, heart, and hara. And I've talked about this inner alignment before between your three minds within you. And when you do that, you access a fourth mind, which is your high heart. And the high heart is what gives your body, which is a spiritual technology, access to these invisible realms, to feeling the light, to having my eyes and ears open to receive the signs and the symbols and the synchronicities that come from spirit, that come from the other side, and how they're communicating, and to feel deeply inside of myself, in my intuition, in my knowings, in my clear cognizance, in how messages land on me. And when we all learn how to tune in to our individual abilities, which we all have access to, we also learn at the same time when we are deeply in our body and in the safety of our nervous system and the safety of ourself to trust him, to trust the messages we receive, to trust our intuitive guidance. We don't question it anymore. And this was one of the things that we were talking about on this trip and being in the actual experience of actively doing that, but with one another. Love is easy. And how much have we been taught the exact opposite of that truth? And so as I'm here this week contemplating what's next, what do I want to create? What feels the most alive for my life and what serves humanity? What serves you as you listen to this? That something in you lights up in recognition because that's how we all individually transform and awaken. It's not through the mind, the thinking mind, and it's not through the emotional center, and it's not through just our nervous system either. It's all three of those, and plus our motion, our devotion and motion that activates our faith. So obviously, I have some deep unpacking to do and to break out over these next few weeks that will carry over into what I teach, of course. So I'll just leave it there. That if you have the chance to just follow and trust where you're led, watch the magic unfold for you. Watch how the field responds to you. Watch how people respond to your frequency when you're just in that open space of love. Light ignites light. And to turn up your light in your life is to turn up how you're walking your path. Because I have said for years, my morning mantra when I wake up is May the light within me light the way before me, and may I have the courage to walk it. May the light within me light the way before me, and may I have the courage to walk it. And as I turn up my light, and as you turn up your light, the way gets revealed brighter and brighter and brighter, so we can see and feel and experience more and more and more of the capacity, of the unlimitedness, of the true nature, of the love, the power, the force of love, of divine love, of divine light, of divine truth that we really truly are, and how that wants to express through this physical incarnation for your soul and for the good of the whole. Because when we move into those higher frequencies of light, it's no longer just about you. It becomes how can I serve, how can I serve this light in everybody I meet? And of course, you can start that just right where you are, today, right now, with the next person that you meet, by looking them in the eyes, by looking for the light in them, for giving them a sincere smile, sincerely loving and caring about them. And when you've done that, you've turned up your light. It's really so simple. It's all about being. Being in the body within this moment, showing up in the world as the brightest light that you are, and taking care of your own soul and your own self simultaneously. Sounding you out in love. And with that, I will plan a series of podcasts and let you know what those will be. But for today, have a little adventure wherever you are and let the magic of the world unfold for you. See you next week, beloveds. And while we tone you out, if you're not driving your car, I invite you to just close your eyes and feel these frequencies and tone with us.